It's the day before I step on stage.
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Well it's almost here, tomorrow is the day I will be stepping on stage and showing off all my hard work and dedication.
It's crazy to me that it's really happening. I remember like it was yesterday being 8 weeks out and thinking I had forever before this day, and here I am in California 1 day out from my first NPC show.
I started this journey back in April and became addicted to my progress and the struggle.
I set a goal in April and I told myself I will do this and I will give this 100% dedication.
And to be honest I have truly stuck to my word since that day.
The first couple weeks of prep were miserable..
I was tired, no energy and my workouts were a bunch of plyos that I wasn't use to doing.
So I was dying a little inside.
It then got easier after a few weeks and when I started seeing the progress I was making, I don't think I have ever been so motivated in my life.
The weeks went by and I was in the gym 6 days a week busting my ass.
Day in and Day out.
I started going to the gym 3 times a day when I was 4 weeks out.
If you want something you have to put in the work thats for sure.
I've sweat like a pig, I've cried over the cupcakes I couldn't have, I've struggled to get out of bed at 5am for fasted cardio, and I've wanted to give up when I had plyo's for leg day.
but the feeling I am going to have tomorrow stepping on that stage won't make any of that matter.
Walking off that stage I will be proud of myself for my accomplishments.
I will stay proud no matter what happens, I know that I gave it my all and thats all that matters.
I have had great opportunities since I have started this journey.
I am about to announce very soon that I am now a sponsored athlete, I shot for Iron Man Magazine and had many other photo shoots.
I am truly doing what I love and have found such a strong passion for this sport and lifestyle.
I am not just on a diet or just a workout plan, this is my lifestyle..
this is who I have become.
yes i can't be as lean and have my ridiculous abs like I do right now all year around (wish I could:|), but its not healthy and I don't want to weigh 110 pounds being 5'4 my whole life.
But even in my off season I will continue to be healthy workout everyday and improve for next years shows.
I can't wait to find a healthy lifestyle balance.
like every other competitor I have had many days I will cry over food or just want to eat everything.
Have I gave in and ate everything?
NO
It's all a mind game.
and thats why I love this sport so much.
It's you vs. you
What is unhealthy food really going to do for you?
you have a choice
it could taste good for about 3 mins?
or
you could look in the mirror and have the body you've always dreamed of?
your choice.
And trust me I am not saying never eat things you enjoy because I believe we all need balance to keep sane!
I've had days I wanted to give up.
I've asked myself is this worth it? Do I really want to do this?
But that made me strive for more.
I feel like when you struggle or maybe even fail at something thats what makes you successful as a person.
If you are determined and strive for your dreams and success you will one day meet them.
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I don't think I could have done this without all the people that have stuck behind me, motivated me, pushed me, and truly wanted to see me succeed. It's such an honor for people to tell me I am their inspiration and they hope the best for me.
It makes me push harder to succeed.
We all need people when we feel weak or down to help bring us up.
So thank you everyone who has followed my journey to this very weekend and wished nothing but the best for me.
I'm chasing after my dream..
and I won't stop until I get it.
